The reason you are where you are today, is that Krishna has a destiny for you to fulfill. He has assignments for you to accomplish. You may have given up on His GRACE, but His GRACE will never give up on you. He chose you before you chose Him. You might as well recognize that you are a marked man/woman. The Creator of universes has His hand on yr life.
If you surrender to His Guiding Grace, You’ll be able to say along with Kunti. “THANK YOU, Krishna, that I’m still here. “My enemies have tried to persecute me, but they were not able to finish me off.” That depression couldn’t finish me off. That divorce, those legal problems, couldn’t finish me off. The haters, the critics, the naysayers who tried to push me down, their best was not good enough.